Things About Her
I felt so sick yesterday like, something was wrong with my relationship. I think it was the fact that I'm her first girlfriend and she's 'bi'. And, when I was younger, I'd just let it keep bothering me and stuff, but not now. I told her how I felt. I told her how I'd been hurt by Bisexual girls over them wanting guys and such. I dont think she understood fully, but we talked for a second. Another thing, I can't stop talking about girls. I think because I've been single for so long, it's what I do. I said something really stupid last night, and after I said it, it made me want to cry. She insisted that I didn't hurt her feelings, but I still thing I did. She said, "If you would have hurt my feelings, I wouldn't have kissed you after." Which kinda made me feel better. And I told her, "Sometimes I think people dont tell me the truth because they're afraid of hurting my feelings. I'll be okay." So then she says, "You remember when we said we'd tell each other the truth? Well, You didn't hurt my felings." Ok, so I felt a bit better. Then later she brought it back up, when I asked her when she fixed her hair. She said, "When you were fuckin up." OH I wanted to cry. I turned away from her, and held back my tears. She was telling me to look at her, and that she was joking. The rest of then ight was awsome. Her son, Brayton, was there. He woke up like every two hours (he's only 5 months), and she fed him, which put him back to sleep. He's like the cutest little kid ever. We also watched "Ella Enchanted", which she had not seen yet. She said it was cute, but I could tell she thought it was kinda boring. I think she likes Dramas or something. I'm more of a cute/stupid funny movie or a Scary movie. She knows so much about me, and I know so little about her. I'm just so open about everything. After "Ella Enchanted" we started to watch "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azakaban". We got to the part where Hermione punches Malfoy in the face, then we paused it because we were talking. Needless to say, we didn't turn the movie back on. I told her she'd never end up watching it now, haha. All in all, I'm happy with her. I'm not going to say I love her, because it's WAY too soon for that. I love being with her, much like I loved being with a certain someone back in Virginia Beach, whom is never home when I call. I guess work and College will do that to ya. Sometimes I wish I could go back to when I lived in Virginia Beach. Do things slightly differently. But then, I wouldn't have all this worldly experiance over here. And I think I've changed a lot in Cali, which makes me not want to change anything about my life. Except that I have some unpaid bills, haha, which I have to pay off someday. Well, I'm gonna go. I've blabbed enough. TA. Hai |
Written on 2004-12-13 @ 9:25 a.m. |