Anger You've Never Felt Before
I'll start off by saying, since I have my own car back to myself...I have washed it...inside and out. Totally awesome. Lets see how long I can keep it clean with just me driving it. Then I'll go on with...Assistant Manager Roger is the most annoying man in the world. He called me to the offic and proceeded to say that I had missed 4 days in the past 6 months, so I was going to get written up. I started to get angry because it was just wrong. There are people who've missed like 20 to 30 days in the past year, and I'm the one that gets bitched at. So, not a minute later, he says, "Well, since you've missed 5 days in the past 6 months..." That just set me off. He always does that. He changes what he says. And you'd normally think, he just miss counted or forgot about a day, but he does this all the time. I told him to just back up and that I needed some space. So...what does he do? Start to get up and walk towards me. I just said, "I need to go." And I walked out of the room. He was yelling that I shouldn't leave, but I didn't care. So, the woman that was in there with us, walks into the hallway to watch me I guess. So, I'm trying to breath and calm down, when he walks into the hallway and starts up all over again about how many days I've missed and how I should get a D-day (day off with pay). Which wasn't true, and set me off even more. See, you have to go through these steps, no matter what. First they give you a verbal warning (which I've already gotten, like 4 months ago), then you get written up, then you get a D-Day, then you're terminated. He tried to make it sound like he was doing me a favor not giving me a D-day the first time. Anyway, in the hallway, so he's blabbing on and on about shit, how he always does. I could feel my body starting to shake, the angriest I've ever been. I started to clench my fists. Then I had to think....does my job matter? Does this anger matter that much? So I put my hand in his face when he started to talk again. I told him slowly, "Get away from me...right now." I walked a little down the hallway and started to breath again. He walked back into his office when the woman. I went back in the office in a minute or two and sat in the chair, I few feet from him. He started going again, and I could feel that anger coming back. I told him to just print his stupid write up paper. As he was doing that, I asked him, "Why is it that it's an unexcused absense if I have a relative that's had a stroke and in the hospital?" He said that it's only excused if I clock in and leave early. Then I told him how Assistant Manager Greg told me to go home after I talked to him. I told him to ask Greg. Then Roger was like, "well, if you promise to improve your attendance, I wont write you up." So I promised him reluctantly and walked out of the office. I thought about appologizing to him, but he'll just do the same thing to someone else. Plus, he'd think it was just because he didn't write me up. After that, everyone was asking me what was wrong, and I told a few of my buds at work. It pretty much got around the store in an hour, which didn't bother me because it helpd to get my anger out by talking about it. So I talked to like 10 people about it and I was actually in a better mood than when I first got to work. Other than that, not much going on. The internet wasn't working well this morning, and it took until like an hour ago to get it up again. We dont even know how we did it. But, I'm gonna go do some stuff...talk to some people, look up some buffy stuff...you know. Hai |
Written on 2004-09-27 @ 8:09 p.m. |