Killin Me
Don't you ever just want to give up on life? I feel like that today. I feel like I dont want to be around, like everyone is out to get me. I'm not saying suicide, that's just not me anymore. Tried that when I was a teen, just doesn't work for me. I'm just saying because work is taking a toll on me, well, everyone. Everyone is being an ass, and just not respecting everyone. I even got into it with Sergio today. I called him a liar, because he is. He tells Josh that he wants to be friends, and keep things the same. Only he tells me that he only wanted to save his feelings. He doesn't want to be with him or anything. Anyway, he lied about a bunch of other things. He lies to me too. So, I told Josh what we talked about. I didn't want to upset Josh, but it had to be said. Plus, if Sergio would have told him, it would have been worse and there would have been yelling and crying. Sergio's mad i said something, but that's who i am. He knew I'd tell Josh, because I told Sergio, "I love Josh." Sergio wasn't mad I told him, he was mad because I was in a bad mood and I was "acting like a bitch". You would too if you kicked your ass and someone told you you weren't doing a damn thing and you were worthless (which is what Robert said to me, ass hole). Anyway, work just sucks. I'm sure you know that by now. Good thing, my check kicked ass. I LOVE IT!!! I'm gonna cash it tomorrow and buy some Mandy Moore CDs, along with some Season 1 mutant X DVDs. Plus, I want to go to Deja Vu with Josh on Monday, hopefully he can go. If he's not broke, he will. Either way, I'm gonna go. That or go get a massage. Well, that's my venting. Catch ya later. Ta. Hai |
Written on 2004-11-18 @ 2:02 a.m. |