How Do I Live
So much stuff happens to people that you just dont know about. People can hide stuff so easily. And, you might know, I'm not one to hide something unless it's important or not about me. I'm one of the most open people I know of. It's like, everyone knows I'm a lesbian, they know which girls I like, I'm a black belt in karate, some of my family problems (if relevent), and a lot of other stuff. Why is it that people need to conceal so much? If you just come out and tell people the truth yourself, they never have to talk to someone else about it. They don't have to get the wrong story. Then it comes to important things. Things you need to talk about (my private diary for instants). When you need to talk...you don't. Even I'm guilty of that. I wish I could just come out and tell everyone what happened. I see more pity than anything coming from them if I do. And everyone asking, "Are you okay?", "Do you want to talk about it?", "What about a shrink?", "Did you report it?" I just want to get over it. I mean, my friends, I want the support and I love them for trying to help me. Those people who have nothing to do with me before this, I don't need extra people who don't really care. Because we all know they're being polite. If you've seen the Ellen stand-up (forget which one). She says how people just ask 'how are you' as a polite thing. If you say 'alright'. They turn around annoyed and are like, 'What? Did something happen? I don't have time.' That's how a lot of people are. Even your friends might be like that. I'm just saying be sincere when consoling someone. Don't do it just to be polite. On to other stuff. I just finished watching Buffy. I think it was from season 7, which means Iyari Limon and Eliza Dushku should be coming up soon in the series. I found this cool layout of Iyari, but I think it was cool just cause Iyari was the theme. And I know I said I wouldn't go back to Eliza or Buffy themed, but that looks like what's going to happen. If I can't do a Faith/Kennedy theme, maybe Faith/Angel. Faith and Angel are like the only straight couple I'd go for on that series. They're just cute. I dunno, I'm weird. So, yeah, since I have to go to work tonight, I think I'm going to actually look into making a layout today. I've been looking for pix for a few days, but I want to actually do it now. So...I'm gonna go do it. Wish me luck. Ta. Hai |
Written on 2004-02-11 @ 9:11 a.m. |